♥ Learn to let go

2012-01-13T21:50:00.001+08:00

2011-12-29T02:46:00.003+08:00

Now it's already 4 days after Christmas. Let me summarise what i did that day. I went to Henry's house in the Christmas eve afternoon & stay there till the clock hand hits 12o'clock & MERRY CHRISTMAS ! Jinhan suggest that we take last train to town and fool around. So.. We took bus to jurongpoint & rush for the last train without jefferson. We actually ran for it, thought we're unable to get into the train, but we did (; ! Ohya, did i mention? i actually start messaging with this guy in school. okay weird. Let me continue, we meet some guys at city hall & we walked all the way to Haji lane to seesha, heh.. but the boss there sucks. After seesha, those guys planned to go lanshop. When we reach there it's already almost 5. Some of us sat outside and fall asleep while waiting for them for 1hour before leaving. We took train to Vivo then took bus 30 all the way to jurongpoint. Everyone's fell asleep in the bus, dead beat. HAH! Reach home at 8am.

I want time to stop at yesterday, whereby we argued so much because of all those tiny things. When you helped me with my food and drinks. Last but not least, i broke your record in jewel deluxe and you give those "i'll take over yours soon" face! Thanks for letting me know you still remember my words & willing to spend the effort to inform me that you're going clubbing today and i don't have to worry about you falling in love with any girls there. It's already 1 year 3 days. i was on cloud nine when you whatsapp me just now. thanks boy.

2011-12-11T02:40:00.004+08:00

So long since i spent my day so happily (; Out with mates to have seoul garden for lunch at taka, the food was .. alright ? The ice-cream is really weeeeee-weeet, made one for myself with those topping ;P delicious! Walk around orchard, and some guys was modelling nearby topman. They're super hot, i meant it. SUPERB! Those fit bodies and their look, perfect man :$ ! Went vivo w/o some people as they got something on and ya, we went to the rooftop straight. (; slack till the sun set, and i went to look for raewoon & dang at suntec then to boonlay to meet bamboo. (; how can i not be happy ? Meetup with mates, ice-creammmmm, bitch's text, bamboo's return, hot guys at orchard! HA!HA!

I didn't regret knowing you and falling for you. I know who's not worth the wait and who's worth. Since i got that tiny bit of chance to get back together with you, why can't i wait a little more longer? I know, things are not the same as the past, but why not giving it a try. Told you so much yesterday, and i wonder do you get it that i never did change. Now feeling so awkward because of what i told you last night. 15 more days, i hope you remember.

2011-12-04T15:23:00.002+08:00

It's already december (; I super missed my schoolmates, i mean super! ;'( outing's approaching. (; Just quit breko and yesterday was my last day. The day before yesterday was a memorable one, the cute guy came once again, and it's me who serve them like always. He talked to me and say hope to see my around somewhere someday. :P couldn't stop smiling ! Stayed till 1am in breko that day and stay in the kitchen for the 2hrs. super fun i swear :P ! Valene let me wash two hours of dishes yesterday ;( yet she say i'm lucky cause i washed the dishes on my last day which i usually don't wash at all. hah ! She gave me handcreammmm cause my hand is super gross!

one year had passed so quickly. 22 more days, remember the day after christmas?

2011-11-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

Graduation lunch turn out well and more enjoyable than i thought, photo spam & last time gathering as a batch. I swear i'm gonna miss my schoolmates, all those jokes we shared and those ups and downs. Life's great this few days, except for the fact that we're no longer whatapps-ing anymore. I've enough, seriously. i'm sorry for being paranoid too, i mean maybe because i love you much more than i actually feel. It doesn't really matter anymore to you already, am i right ?

2011-11-09T00:14:00.001+08:00

cute boy, when can i get to see you again ? :3

Now you're the reason why i don't mind going early for work :P

as for someone else, tell me if you're worth the wait.

I've been waiting forever.

2011-11-06T00:39:00.004+08:00

You said you'll never make me upset, why said it when you know you can't do it ?

Giving me false hope, then let me fall all over again. You planned that didn't you ?

For a moment, i thought we could get back. Until you proved me wrong. best.

2011-10-26T14:27:00.002+08:00

Been waking up to someone morning texts this few days, I won't ask for anything else (;

i bet, false hope sucks the most. At least, i know, for me.

More than friends, less than lovers.

"The saddest thing for a girl to do is to dumb herself down for a guy"

2011-10-21T02:02:00.001+08:00

2011-10-15T15:53:00.002+08:00

What's more better than having them in my life (; 4C'11 make me learn, went through up and downs together and lastly, make me had a great year with them. I'll still choose to be in this class the next life :D now i miss studying in the same space with them ;(

'N' levels had ended, didn't really study for Ns, so .. if the result turn out to be that bad, .. TSK! so far, holiday ain't that fruitful. No jobs, no events. tsk! Birthday's approaching! Planned to celebrate with jinhan and clique on 22nd to the zoooooooo ~ " we going to the zoo, zoo, zoo... how about you, you, youuu ? " ^^ then buffet afterwards (; ah, i'm already lazy to blog, ciaossss ~

It's 15th bitch. how many month had passed ? And it's 17th in two days times, he's coming back.

2011-09-11T01:30:00.002+08:00

Suddenly have the urge to blog, so it brought me here. Three paper down already, i'm quite confidence for my social studies and mother tongue, but what's disappointing is my english paper ;'( this definitely sucks. There's more disappointment ahead, so .. let's see how it goes. I bet I'll still score better anyway, no doubt (Y) I hate life now, lifeless soul. Sometimes, i prefer to be blind temporary. I always tend to see those tiny little things that i doesn't want to see in life, and what's more, i'll always trust the wrong people, no wonder karma hits you. salute* ! . Cui max ! Too much for me to hold on. I miss those old days, when i don't really need anyone.

You told me you loved me so why did you go away?

2011-08-29T13:51:00.003+08:00

I miss days when we don't have to worry about exams, we can just scribble and passed. Things are different now, 'N' level are approaching, but i feel no fear. What's more, i didn't revise a single thing yet. I'm so dead huh ! :( I came to blog because JannaBZM miss my blogging :P hahaha ! proud enough :P Boohoooo ~ I miss taking PSLE exams . Joke or what ! so lifeless now, but being in school definitely bring me a lot of joy ! DEFINITELY ! :D Teacher's day is in 2 days time, only have to study 1 day this week and half day for celebrating, awesome or what ! Kinda looking forward to teacher's day celebration (; !

Forgetting you is the one thing that i'll probably never be able to do, but letting go of you is something i already did.

so why did we stop messaging, why did we stop talking to each other, why did you stop joking with me alr ? It's so heartache seeing you get hurt while playing basketball, but in the other hand, i think you deserve it, it doesn't hurt as much as how much i'm suffering inside.

2011-07-24T15:49:00.002+08:00

Shall try to recall what happen on yambock's son birthday (; had really lots of fun with sec 5 guys & some of my classmates at east coast park, booked a bus and transport us there ^^ Drink, Poker, watch stars, and also camwhore. (; Fun time doesn't last. Went safra to pool after celebrating his birthday. Play all the way till 2 ~ 3 and went home. Didn't had this fun for a long time, and i really enjoyed my day, even some of them are not my closest friend (; !

2011-06-04T13:04:00.002+08:00

I'm tempted to blog, so .. Hi readers, i wonder who will be even reading this. LOL ! I had the best day of my life yesterday. Basketball (Y) an awesome one yesterday. As for now, i'm still considering whether should i go for fatt's BBQ later on. I'm gonna save moneyyy for two dudes birthday, why on the same day siak ! ;'( Broke. Shall buy a good one for him. hopefully. ciaos ~

2011-05-23T15:31:00.003+08:00

Been how long since i last updated this dead blog of mine ? (; Up & downs this month which really can bring me down. Ohyea ! Did i mention that I've gotten my iphone 4 and a super chio casing! So in love with my phone now. (Y) Went Sentosa with awesome bbfamily girls & had real lots of fun with them doing all those silly things and also being stalked by a bangala which was so thickskin. eww, disgusting. I'm not being racist or what-so-ever, but the problem is he deserve me to say this. Just try to put yourself into my shoe dude. One more thing, "quarrel' with a person and doubt things will be as fine as last time, i doubt she will keep quiet infront of others instead of telling them what happen and everything will end up being my fault, okay. i mean MY FAULT, YA ! So be it, others want listen then listen, trust me then trust me. what else can i do.. lame. I feel so stupid, sometimes you've to choose the right person to trust on. Likee .. BAMBOO (Y) ! Best, even though 4 years only. BEAT IT. okay, whatever. And last but not least, I failed all my MYE results except for an A2 for mother tongue, shit you. Bring disappointments again and again. Should i really start studying for my N's already ? I've wasted too much time on useless stuff. damn. hehe, But as for now I shall go for my nap now, and wakeup in time to go mandi's house watch dark water with awesome people later. *wink.

2011-05-03T19:25:00.002+08:00

Overnight @ reena's house last night, was super awesome. It has been a long time since four of us spend the time all by our own. Bringing up the past and it's definitely very retarded, i swear. I feel the bond between us, and it's like we're living together under the same roof. Bathe, help melissa to dry her hair. Prepared to sleep at 1+am , busy settling position of the night. -sleep- Melissa accidentally kick the wardrobe and woke all of us up. (Y) laugh* ! Was late for school because reena don't have the guts to wake us up ! awesomeness . it brought joy to me for my may, even though it just started. Gonna get my phone on the 13th may, damn ! i so excited !

actually it doesn't really matter whether i'm chatting with you, messaging with you anot. You're never lack of girls to talk to, so why worry ? I'm just an option when you're bored, i'm not as cute as beautiful as those girls you talk to, so why do you even bother ! This is really getting out of hands, and it really affected my mood. You just need to simply walk away.

2011-04-21T22:07:00.002+08:00

*looks like i'm blushing in this photo :$ aww. haha ! Life was super unpleasant recently, i feel like i'm dying . Firstly, teachers & principal came to our class today to talk to us 'bout what happen yesterday ( the glued chair that Ms J sat on, Karma's a bitch my dearest teacher ) and it freaking wasted alot of our time. Secondly, that particular him* was making me pissed off, like always. I don't even know why am i pissed off actually, i just did. I think it's because I'm one of the girl that he flirt with, and i'm super not happy about it, i just want to be different. He went to look for the girl when he knew it don't like her, instead of me that was sitting outside the class alone. Best thing ever. Lastly, The common test results that disappoint me, but i know i didn't put in a lot of effort, so i don't really wanna care this time round. But everything comes with one pleasant thing, mommy's birthday turn out quite well. People singing birthday song through skype, and daddy birthday cake surprise. It definitely was the best birthday that mommy will had, even though it only last for that short period of time. Mommy, I love you (; !

2011-03-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

I don't want my blog to be dead, so yea. I'm here to blog even though I've no idea what i'm suppose to blog about. (Y) Pepperlunch was full house today, so went to eat at kopitiam with those close ones. Ohmy, I saw Ms J along with her child and Ms Yeong being alone. LOL ! It's definitely a joke. :x Took bus to 320 after a wonderful lunch with them. Same thing, watch people play basketball, chit-chat, and fooling around. 2 more days to Hongming, Chunkiat and Junlong's court. Hope you all will be fine, it's a must ! I don't care okay ?

I want to stop messaging with you because, I'm afraid of falling in love again. I show attitude and show tantrums at you because I realized I'm not the only one you need, and message with. I'm definitely not your first priority.

2011-03-18T13:16:00.002+08:00

i'm like dying ;( this cough and flu is not getting away. My holiday's gonna end, and i've tons of homework left untouched. Steamboat lastnight at babe's house, awesome one (; ! how i wish you could join us. ah-whatever.

2011-03-13T20:59:00.002+08:00

The happy moment are all gone, i should know it won't last long. I don't wanna be one of those girl whereby you flirt with. I know i'm being ridiculous now, i just wanna let you know, i'm different ! What's with guys nowadays, messaging girls letting them feel that they're the only one ? I'll remember those days when i wakeup just to reply your texts. HILARIOUS ME ! Shall really starting blogging. My Holiday's here ! I've 9 days to relax, time for a break ! i want more events ;'(

2011-02-28T16:55:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry for me & my dead blog ;x just came to update a little. (; common test just over, was quite satisfied with my result even though i failed some subject, hahahaha ! doesn't matter, it's just a test :P ! Flood my mind with a lot of nonsense stuff this few days, oh man how . My corrupted mind sucks.

2011-01-29T13:10:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry that my blog is lack of post ;( . didn't really got the mood or time to blog as i'm either in school or i'm out ! (; things get screwed few days back and i'm over it already. I'll never wanna find a friend like this next time, but this time round shall let it pass. I'll get over you, and you need to fucking regret or feel guilty for doing this. Gonna go for babe's chalet soon, and i'm super lack of sleep. I'm so dead. Chinese new year is on it's way ! (; *pray that i got a lot of red packet* :P gonna get everything i want, awww. Happygirl ! :D:D ! PROOF* BYEBYE !

2011-01-11T20:47:00.002+08:00

Finally get back to posting after leaving my blog rotting for such a long time. (; I'm suppose to be chionging for my studies now instead of using so much computer, but that's too bad (; computer back in action. Due to lappy breakdown, i didn't really get the chance to be posting or updating anything. I've nothing to post too ! Satisfied with life now like dude :D ! Proof * bye !

2010-12-23T00:28:00.002+08:00

So why does things always goes wrong nowadays ? I'm sorry, thought you'll always be there for me, stupid me. This definitely sucks to the max. Babe, I've tons of things to tell you, this feeling sucks man ! When are you coming back ;'( .

2010-12-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

one confession :

Hey x, i want you back. For the forth time, i want you for my christmas. ;(

I miss my dear abegail ;( faster come back. January 9th, and fairy god son XD

day 9

2010-11-29T23:43:00.001+08:00

Two smileys that describe my life now :

1. :D

2. ;'(

2010-11-26T23:56:00.002+08:00

three things i don't want :

1. i don't want to retain next year.

2. i don't want to be left out .

3. i don't want anyone to be sad.

Spend my day with mama today (; turn out really well, bought a jacket for myself (; papa mama and brother was so engrossed with my ipod game just now. i win them 1.50 in veg samurai, weets. I'm happy now, i'm happy with what i have and what i am. i miss both my baby guinea pig now ;( i want them back, i hope they're fine.

day 7

2010-11-24T23:04:00.003+08:00

4 things i want :

1. i want him back .

2. i want to have cashh $.$

3. i want to get good results without studying XD

4. i want things to never change.

Had an awesome day together with friends, even though the weather's not cooperating. Eat snacks for the whole afternoon till night for pepperlunch. (; PERFECT ! :D puff after eating, slack with others, talk craps and took train home with dang, youxin, reena, and tan (; !

*leon's kite flew away because he didn't get hold of the string (;

*talk with some people, awwww (;

*lastly, new friends ! :D

day 6

2010-11-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

5 people who mean a lot :

1. Abegail

2. Hongming

3. Yuxin

4. Jinhan

5. Him

there's too much for me to list, so yea. this few maybe will be enough bah.

Overdue photo, so just used it bah (;

day 5

2010-11-14T17:20:00.002+08:00

6 things i wish i'd never done :

1. Never started smoking.

2. Never went back to him for the third time

3. Never been with him at all.

4. Never come back from china.

5. Never make anyone disappointed

6. lastly, I WISH I'D NEVER SAVE THAT DAMN MESSAGE !

2010-11-12T00:59:00.002+08:00

7 things that cross my mind a lot :

1. can i have him back ._.

2. how's probation gang de case.

3. will it be really tough next year.

4. what i'm suppose to do now.

5. i should watch my show liao !

6. who do i really love -.-

7. should i rebond XD

2010-11-10T00:31:00.003+08:00

8 ways to win my heart :

1. security !

2. don't flirt around like i'm nothing.

3. I somehow see the appearance, imagine you with a fatass la. z

4. don't neglect me.

5. i don't like people too quiet XD

6. FUN

7. be yourself.

8. caring

9. control me, but not too much.

10. love meeeee.

Reena's gonna leave singapore and go cambodia, enjoy my lady (; you'll have fun there. Remember buy things back, and lastly tell us your experience ! If you're reading this, i wanna tell you, don't worry. i'll go and see you off and remember to take care of your stupid stomach there (; don't skip any meal, and also don't get sick ! :D

Day 2

2010-11-08T16:52:00.002+08:00

9 things about myself :

1. Short ! shiat.

2. I ' chi bu qi ku ' XD

3. i don't ask for perfection (;

4. loud .

5. i play harder instead of study XD

6. i find myself chubby . LOL

7. VIOLENT :D:D

8. friendly towards people i want to be friendly with (;

9. last but not least, love you.

Day 1

2010-11-06T00:39:00.007+08:00

abegail :

babe, it've already been 5 years already huh (; since primary 5, power or what (; we didn't quarrel but got one little misunderstanding between each other. doesn't matter anyway, it doesn't bring us down (; hahah ! I trust you more than anyone else, you should know. i love us gossiping and also being like some kind of mad. you should take good care of youself now. you know we stop you it's for your own good right ? my lady here, i love you :D:D

Reena :

hey you, i know i always scold you like idk what. but you should know i love you right ? (; I'm sorry for always scolding you, please forgive me and continue let me scold XD hahaha ! I'm happy to have a holy friend like you ! Keep being to holy, and into him. please clear you stitch soon XD

Melissa :

Stupid damn fatass dingdangdong ! (; I like being with you, you know why ? Cause it's always me and you making both of the girls laugh (; you're able to make my day. I like it when we always tease each other with stupid name, sitting outside our classroom gossip. You always bully me ! but i always beat you (Y) fair !

Yuxin :

You're the one i always share my secret with, you know ? i trust you super much, and i think i didn't choose the wrong choice (; thanks for being there, even you always ignore me like nobody business ! I like being with you in class, i'm too into irritates you. I'm sorry if i'm being too irritating. Pick the right choice , As long as you are happy.

Hongming :

thanks for being there for me like my blood brother (; You've been doing a great job as a god-brother of mine. I'm sorry for always bullying you, cause you're just too bastard sometimes (; mr pigeon, please behave well and faster finish your stupid damn probation ! You've me ! So , bear in mind, don't do anything alone :D

Family :

I'm sorry mama, for always making you angry. You're still angry with me now, you bitch ! please understand, i know you all are the best i ever had. Childish parents, and irritating brother. Perfect family under my eyes, i like sharing my everyday with you people ! (; remember those night meeting, jokes.

Brothers :

Thanks for always being there ! really, you guys can make my day pretty well, telling me your experience, and also remember those days when you guys got no probation, miss it super damn much. faster, end everything. clean and clear (;

Jinhan :

cooler, i've always been trusting you (; you should know ! thanks for being a listening ear, and being a great brother of mine ! (: !

Class :

i don't like our class in the very first place, and maybe now. But i can say this class bring teacher alot of troubles , but so what (; i finally get used to be in this class, but yet it's the end of the year. we still have next year though. some people in class always make me laugh, buy sweets and being there when i broke down, remember ? I'm sorry for not coming on the war game and missed out some bonding with you people. Doesn't matter ! just one day (;

Him :

I'm super sorry for the stupid past, everything i wanted to say shall left it unsaid. I've text you right, you should know already. Doesn't matter anyway, shouldn't be so into it anymore longer.

2010-11-04T23:40:00.001+08:00

Since my blog's gonna be dead, shall learn from others by doing this (;

but from tomorrow. LOL!

Day One: Ten people you wish to thank.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four things you want.
Day Eight: Three things you don’t want.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

2010-10-30T19:11:00.002+08:00

Do you remember how sweet we were once ? All those sweet talks, heart warming memories. ;( Most importantly, do you remember you went to look for me when i'm running 2.4 and also want me show you banana, spam photos, msn conversation, facebook social interview, grabbing you and walk together in those creepy places. Tell you what, i remember everything. It always cross my mind. Silly me huh. Does it prove to you that he's the same as the past already, is it enough ?

2010-10-18T22:36:00.004+08:00

This picture is somehow few months ago, just used it then .

Hongming and others are all out already (; happy die !

I hope the punishment won't be too much for you people, prayhard * !

So lifeless without them ;x but now .. All must be home by 8 ! Piang !

Tahan (; I know i can, hehe ! for their sake man !

Getting results back tomorrow, like cui only ! ;( zen me ban !

gonna pray hard for it too ;x Confident ! (; hahah ! *wink.

it's marking day today, and i get to see hongming like finally ! :D:D !

birthday's coming, i wish .. .. *secret* ! (; hope it come true ;)

Schooling tomorrow, so it's time for beddy ! (; See you tomorrow cutie (;

you know i still want you right ? :( Still remember we'll once so in love.

Goodnight people (; Once more, hope nothing happen to them (;

2010-10-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

Can you people like faster come out ;(

I'm dying sia, faster come outtt ! ;'(

i miss you people ;((((((( ! It has been the fourth day alr sia ! -'-

REMEMBER YOU PEOPLE PANGSEH ME !

MUST PAY ME BACK THE DAYS OKAY :(

praypraypraypraypraypraypraypraypray*

hope nothing happen ;(

2010-10-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

(Y) Last year birthday photo (; Like nice only ;x hahaha ! ;$

Exam's hereeee ~ Sucks, i haven started studying yet.

Maybe i should get a last minute study. arg.

piang, Piang, PIANG ! :( I'm sad.

My dear melissa, cheerup like me ! :D:D:D (HUGS)

Lots of birthday coming up :( mommy's gonna be angry.

I'll be taking more allowance xD

心里有点放不下

a lover die

2010-09-27T22:09:00.002+08:00

Gonna meet my girls tmr (;

back to square one, screw everything up. -'-

fuckyou deeeeeeeeeep -.-

I knew that I never meant a thing to you,

I knew what you said to me wasn’t the truth.

still gonna say this : happy birthday.

2010-09-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

i never once thought of leaving you, no matter how disappointed i was with you.

2010-09-07T13:00:00.001+08:00

Happy 3rd month honey (;

2010-08-07T13:16:00.002+08:00

Happy 2nd month honey (Y) love you (;
Was rather disappointing, but it's okay. we shall celebrate another day kay ?
School celebration was .. bored.
School > home > safra > jp > arena > lakeside > home :D

아기, 이젠 날 떠나 지마

2010-06-30T23:09:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not posting for such a long time, wasn't really home early this few days (;

was out to have fun and enjoy life ! :D:D laugh*

Assembly today sucks ttm seriously. what's the point of having TRC ?

You just wanna change us, and let people think that we're that 'good' students ?

If you think that you've change those school rules, means you've won, you're wrong.

totally wrong, you just trying to tell people that '' Jurong's a strict school ''

BIG DEAL ? NO!! NOT AT ALL TOO !
You're just trying to stop primary school students to join us in this STUPID school .

Stupid botak, get back to where you're from man, you don't belong here.

You're just a principal, don't ever try to change us okay . fuck off .

I love babykwan, (; laugh*

went arena today with lots of people after assembly and talks from vp.

went home change and meet others and went over. (;

had really lots of fun there , reallyyyyyy ! :D Laughters, joy and fun !

The worst part about being lied to is knowing you’re not worth the truth

2010-06-19T23:46:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, its the good memories that kill you inside out, not the bad ones.

Back from ECP for Ricco's birthday celebration (; Overall , FUN ! :D

done prepare everything and went to meet others at 532,

went together as a group, and reach there almost 7 .

laugh, the pit is quite far away from macdonald ;( Tiring of walking on the beach.

Play eat and slack all the way (; sea breeze there is really great (; !

went up the rock to slack, joke and talk .

The clock hand strikes 12 midnight and went cut cake.

Sing birthday songs and play around with cakes.

In between was really moody due to some reason. ;(

Baby they all cab home while us was busy searching for shelter, but none of it was available.

So.. guess what ? ... We camp at the toilet till the rain almost stop.

Bath and fooling around at the enterance of the toilet, Carry stuff went to another shelter.

Kids sleeping, *smilesmile* ADORABLE ! Looking at them till bored.

While they're sleeping , some others went to start up fire.

went to another shelter, as the one we're in is sharing with strangers. talktalktalk, rest awhile.

started talking about scary experience and stories all the way till we left, hair stand.

pack stuff and went return bike and my leg was pain like fuckkkzxc .

wanted to eat burger king, but end up didn't have lunch meals ;(

Bus-ed 196 to clementi and took 99 home, long bus ride equal to sleep, not feeling well ;(

Home sweet home at 11.30 (; Tiring but fun celebration (;

I hate quarreling with baby ;( sigh, make me change my thoughts of ..

Lastly, Happy birthday Ricco !

2010-06-12T22:24:00.003+08:00

back to updating ! Didn't get to meet baby today due to his family dinner ;(

Really feel like going spectra again, had damn lots of fun in there. Playing with people . (;

Even though baby's not in the good mood , but still tried to tahan through the day.

Looking forward to Ricco's bbq on the 18th (; last day of ton-ing i guess, mommy say i ton too much

i've nothing to update about uh ;( so end my post here (; Byyyyyeee byyyyeee (;

babybaby, i trust you. trust that you won't leave me and this time will be a better one ! (;

proof to me alright, love youuuu sillypiggy.

2010-06-05T23:44:00.002+08:00

Damn miss this girl on top la, it's like so long never see her already ;x laughoutloud !

People move on , but memories still there. I've move on slowly than you, but i did it (;

You're the one who caused us now, and what you want us to be . It's your decision.

i don't love you anymore longer (; ain't it suppose to be a good thing (;

''If you love someone, either wait for them, or let them go. Just know that love isn’t guaranteed.''

I'm really quite amazed by myself by how i forget someone that bring happiness for a moment.

Letting go is hard, but it’s better to let go than to hold on to something that was never meant to be. So hold your head high, gorgeous, and stay strong because once you let go, better things are going to come along.

如果我们要分手
别说相爱是错误

2010-06-03T19:10:00.002+08:00

Wokeup super late today as i overnight at yewweng's house last night, was super tired uh.

watch 2 movies at his house and fall asleep , mommy say need to be home by 5am by i'm home at 7.30am.

the 2 movies are nice (; seriously, didn't sleep for the whole night (: *wink.

Broke my promise, but mommy ain't mad (: hahahaha ! fall asleep after yewweng reach home.

should be going out tmr instead of today , ain't gonna be going out today (;

hey that guy that was once mine, your last wish. >:( remember ?

I'm trying to control myself not to hate you right now, it's really hard.

everyone has their weakness, but I've two; everything you say and everything you do.

亏欠了我什么
刚分手当然有伤痛

2010-05-29T11:57:00.002+08:00

Boy, i'm sorry for being not good enough. Maybe we just ain't mean to be .

if there's a thought of you wanting me back, don't hestitate. i'll be back. i didn't blame you at all.

Seriously, i want you back so much ;'( .

当你放开了手,离开的时候,有没有一点舍不得我 ?

我们许下一个愿望, 要在一起,绝不分离,你怎么放弃了 ?

maybe It's some reason that you wanted to leave, but .. i understand.

till now, i love you so ;(

thanks harriel, hongming and people for cheering me up (:

2010-05-25T16:13:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st month baby! (: heartstoyou. Stop being cold to me can ? ;(

I'm so glad at least you remember today , laugh* things happen that really broke me down.

please, no more next time . That's really heart breaking .

Just came back from woodlands as teacher brought us to MINDS to visit those (low IQ people).

Quite fun but at the same times it's scary. hahha ! was clinging onto harriel, pam and vivians ;x

this is a experience ;D laugh* tmr's baby turns, do not laugh !

happy one month baby, thanks for everything that you've done.

i seriously only want you alright ? you promise not to leave uhh, better keep your words ;x

lovedieyouuuuu ;*

2010-05-21T11:20:00.002+08:00

Disappointing result, laugh* didn't attend school today i don't feel like it ;x

hahaha ! some more the weather in the morning sucks too, so it's okay uhh .

miss baby damn lot now, ;'( he's having training later , ahh . whatever .

The best thing you can do sometimes for someone is to just exist. To be there when they suddenly realize that they need you right then.

2010-05-12T14:42:00.002+08:00

hahaha ! (: exams days are moving fast uhh , still got 3 more paper to go !

Gonna be failing my maths really badly and my English won't be that great either ;(

damn lazy to post uh, just changed the blogskin as i get tired of that one , laugh*

Goodluck baby (: lovedieyouuuuuuu :D

2010-05-07T18:30:00.002+08:00

Hug and kisses to you baby (: ! hahahah ! love you :D

Exam period now, study hard. Studying later with baby too , happy happy (:

1 week later can enjoy already , laughhh* but baby gonna have training again, sigh ;(

happy 1month , Harriel and Ricco, really glad that jinhan and jiajia are together (: !! weeets.

i've got nothing else to blog, just don't want this blog to be dead and ya nothing else.

:D:D life's great now, even without some people .

2010-04-26T20:33:00.002+08:00

I love 22532564 (: !

25th,You're mine okay ? (;

2010-04-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

Never makes friends with those who walk away.

Long time didn't post already uhh, ain't home early this few days. So didn't really had the time to blog. (;
as normal , Days in school ain't as great as before, thanks to a lady in class.

I'm good enough by calling you lady instead of a dog or bitch okay, so stop gossiping the people's back.

Thanks Harriel, Jinhan, Leon, Yewweng for accompany in class and Ayin and Dwi for keeping me company (:

BIG BIG BIG HUG TO YOU PEOPLE (: !

now then i know all those lies uhh, saying '' no matter what, we'll always be together.''

what '' we've each other in our heart'' . and now , i don't love you people as much. you guys should know .

had great days out with people (: especially loves (: !

she just don't realised, she's ruining everything, asshole.

i show you what is ruining everything uhh -.- f.

只是那种温柔

再也找不到拥抱的理由
情人最后难免沦为朋友

2010-04-04T10:13:00.002+08:00

Take a new direction

Believe in your decision

Holiday's ending tmr, time really goes real fast . Hate life with yellow form around me . ;(

- Friday -

went to EastCoastPark with family in the early morning just to stay inside the sea for 15mins.

worth it anyway, had conversation with them and playing around. Family bonding ? hahaha !

went home and get prepared and meetup with the guys and went to bugis .

play ''sardines'' ? Sorry if i spell it wrongly, pair up with caleb and went searching for leon and akihiro.

hahaha ! Went to eat and walked to dhoby ghaut. Went to search for a idk what tomb.

and took 174 to look for hongming they all and went off at 12+ . Mommy don't allow me to ton ;(

- Saturday -

Prepare and meet sis at 532 , considering if should we go Arena to look for others.

Went home to get changed and took bus to Arena, played 2 rounds and was feeling real cold,

thanks aiai for his jacket (: ! hahahaha. went to had my dinner, puff and went off.

cab back to 320 and saw Junyu with the others. slack with them when others went to buy stuff.

went to drink with them and babe went real mad, sigh* don't get drunk again please .

Don't feel really great when i'm in cab with sis, couldn't get into sleep till 2.30 b'cos i feel like vomiting.

manage to wake up early today (:

Letting go doesn’t mean giving up,

but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.

为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候

2010-03-21T22:33:00.002+08:00

Will we still be the same,

10 years later ... ... ...

Finally get to post uhh, haven been posting for maybe weeks. Anyone miss me ? *wink

Was real lazy to post this few weeks, hahahaha ! sorry readers ;x

Holiday's ended and it's school tmr ! ;( seriously didn't had enough fun at all laa ;(

Last two days went to sentosa , the weather's no cooperating at all , goshh .

Raining at the first day and drizzling at the second day , sigh*

First day went with Babe zhaoen and co. , had real fun laa ~ walking around looking for food.

play around at went off at 11 + and went up to zhaoen's house ton w/o babe.

Hahahaha, good time at his house, thanks pig for helping me cover blanket laa, don't say i no good.

Went home to change the day after and went back to sentosa, tiring though.

went there watch them catch crab and Mr Justin came (: play awhile more and went to eat.

Mrt-ed over to Jurongeast and went over to imm, eaten stuff and went home (:

OHYA ! AND AND AND i met Jieying (: that dumb fatty went back to malaysia again ;(

* Everything unsaid *

在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走

2010-03-07T18:50:00.003+08:00

Most of the time, i don't care.

sometimes, i really hope you do.

Found out that i have been posting quite frequently this few days, ain't it ? :D

Went OCH with Jinhan, Eunice and others on friday (: Such a long ride there, i swear.

was really very bored inside the mrt , Not much entertainment till we reach tampines .

couldn't find the interchange and start walking around with terence, Mao, Kumchee and eunice .

found others and took bus there, was really creepy there can, couldn't even see the building as it's night.

went in with others, and was holding on real tightly to caleb ;x hahah ! scare get lost ah.

couldn't imagine being inside all alone by myself ah, don't even dare to look up ;x

Went out after walking two storey and having discussion outside.

Right after that, went to eat at nearby coffeeshop and went home .

Yesterday went to watch zhaoen they all play basketball and went off to jurongpoint after awhile.

Okay, i've a thing to complain here. I feel like slapping the aunty that's beside me yesterday inside the bus.

Guess what, there's a taxi infront of our bus when it's driving at it's normal speed.

Just b'cos of that damn taxi, everyone is the bus almost fell just b'cos the bus suddenly brake.

And yea, that damn aunty don't know use what and scratch me ;( screw her, didn't even apologise.

You know it's very pain a not -.- alamak, totally no idea with aunties this few days.

shall give a skip to this, Sigh*

Went Jurongpoint with caleb, Lum and eunice. Had longjohn for our dinner, and went to slack nearby. (:

Zhaoen and Mao and akihiro came after awhile. so does shawn and the black shirt guy.

slack and poker till last bus, but considering about go where next, so didn't catch up with it .

went to fairprice to get drinks, when i'm already half dead. shop around inside and cab to huayi sec there.

meetup with yewweng and went to sit at playground till idk what time , and shift to other side.

Recieved mom's text and get scolded . She lock the door and couldn't get in. Phone battery flat, so could't make calls.

so yea, went over to coffeeshop with eunice to make phone calls, and wake grandma up ;D

managed to get into the house but not the room , screw up. Went to grandma's room to sleep till they open the door.

ain't going out today, good girl or not ? ;D ahahaha !

i suddenly miss school, didn't attend school for 4 days and 2 weekends :D great or what ? ;D

Sometimes there is nothing to be said. Sometimes nothing should be said. I just want to find someone who won’t run away. Someone to look me in the eyes and tell me it’s ok that things don’t always go right. That this is how life works, and how it will always work. That it’s not going to be easy. Today, tomorrow, the next day, but it will somehow get better.

我在你眼里到底算什么
无言的伤痛还在折磨着我

2010-03-03T21:57:00.002+08:00

so toast the crimes the foes the fears

the truth behind the sober tears.

Anyone miss school without me ? hahahaha ! Ain't in school for 2 days due to this stupid sore-eyes of mine.

Thanks sis for spreading it to me (; it doesn't feel great with this pair of eyes okay, so uncomfortable ;P

My eyes hurts nowzxc okay, it's ichy too. i wonder what's the problem with it . sigh* stupiakkkk .

Hmm , went to Polyclinic for my 2days MC, but maybe ain't going for tmr too :D:D !

hohoohhohohoho, quite enjoyable being home instead of suffering in school with those ladys.

I wonder who's trustworthy now, ain't gonna be trusting everyone around.

Yea, even mrvy . screw things up okay. LOL ! whatever, heckcare.

thank god that i've few guys and ladies around :D:D ! (inserthearts)

You deserve someone who knows how to make things up again after you feel bad.

Not someone who's very good with just the word sorry.

因为我们的分离，

造成一切的悲剧。

2010-02-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

I knew that I never meant a thing to you,

I knew what you said to me wasn’t the truth

Let's see when is my last post , haha ! Real sorry for not updating , too lazy to do so . ;x

I'll just elaborate about yesterday and today alright, gonna be turning in soon too (:

went to macritchie reservoir with Zhaoen, Lum, Caleb, Jinhan, Jeff, Mao, Eunice .. and whoever's there.

Took bus there and was looking forward for a toilet break, such a long ride there ah.

Was slacking while waiting for Shawn to arrived, and wait till around 8+pm and went inside the forest.

Exciting, damn cool la, had real fun with them last night (: ! Grab caleb real tight as i'm afraid.

you know , i'm afraid of dark . Can you even imagine how dark it can be ?

Couldn't see anything if you off your damn torch light off, scary. But the atmosphere's there ! :D

Hmm, Jinhan went off first and all of us bus-ed to Jurongspring to had our dinner.

ate Mac and slack at the basketball court till we decided where to go.

Ton at canal with same people except for Jeff and Jinhan. They was busy killing those frogs la.

Cruel people, sigh* after awhile, everyone went to sleep while Mao, Eunice, Lum and me was busy laughing.

Laughing at our stupid lame jokes, hahaha ! Did enjoy real lot last night and took the first bus home .

Was super tired this morning, but manage to wake up and prepare to go out .

Went to arena and played pool with Jianyuan, Junyu, Eunice, Chunkiat. (:

I think the air-con inside broke-down ah, seriously it's very hot inside there, so warmmmm !

Went to Jurongpoint for Longjohn and went to buy Chunkiat schoolshoe and went home :D

Great day with Great people around, you know .

2nd month without you here, It's okay i'm doing fine .

Last day of the month, tmr's gonna be monday again . ;(

Hope babe and sis get well soon , takecare good care (:

如果我能把你留下，

我永远都不会放你走。

因为我要让你知道，

我有你就够了.

2010-02-15T18:56:00.002+08:00

Last night i dreamt of the future,

the future that you're always by my side.

Finally back posting after one week time, shouldn't let my blog be dead right ? ;D

Didn't went to school for thursday and friday, due to my grandmother death. ;(

Was real sad, and cried real hard this time round, thanks some people for being there (:

Can't go to other relative house to collect my red packet ;( 2010's chinese new year will be the worst for me.

Ohyea, Happy belate-d chinese new year and valentine's day to all ;x

Yesterday night went over to grandmother place and eat dinner , Called people and jio them come ;x

Real bored there, Meetup with eunice and jinhan went up to Gamble, but end up fine .

Abegail and Ahhuat came after few rounds and went off, went in again and did the same thing .

after awhile, Yangjie came and so we went down, Jinhan went off after awhile and Junyu came over (:

slack till 12+am and they went off, went up to grandmother house to overnight and watch tv.

woke up early today, eaten breakfast and went back home .

Wait-ed for cousin to come and gamble all the way till they left, went down to bought my snacks. :D

was real bored today, didn't went out due to laziness and Jie cannot make it tonight.

Siandieme! i suddenly feel like spending all the money away. what can i do with those 100plus bucks ?

shiat you ! screw this chinese new year up ! ;( can't get to buy those things i want alr, sigh*.

alright, gotta consider should i go out today alr, hehehe ! byeeeee ~

----- i'm going out (: macdonald with Yuxin . ----

Once in a lifetime, you meet a person who takes your breath away. not because you want them to, but because they’re meant to.

如果你要离去请不要挥手说再见
只要用你的双眼给我片刻的凝视

2010-02-08T22:46:00.003+08:00

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet.

back home after visiting Popo in hospital. ;( The feeling sucks to the max seriously.

After school went home and get changed, went meet up with babe and went off to bugis (:

Meet yuxin as she came over to meet us and went shopping around like nothing's gonna happen.

decided to went back after a puff, walk-ed to mrt station and recieved text from mommy.

she wants me to go over to hospital as she thinks that grandma's not gonna make it tonight.

rush over and went up, was super sad looking at popo at this state, real sad !

tears going to drip down so went out and relax around . watch them eat and went home .

vomited when i'm step inside the lift, oh yucks ;( redbull ~ gone.

feeling not really well now, off to bed. bye

Po, i know and believe that you can make it through. Am i right ?

I don't wanna lose you here, you still gonna be celebrating new year with us right ?

First time see mommy cry and was super heartache at that time, cheerup.

Popo is gonna be so fine that she's gonna laugh and smile with us again. (:

believe me , stay strong.

在那一天是谁先说了再见
在那一天是谁说了不要再留恋

2010-02-02T21:20:00.002+08:00

Keep denying and tell myself,

move on, he doesn't want you anymore.

was quite lazy to update this blog of mine nowadays, wasn't in the mood of blogging anyway.

went to school, yellow form was sign-ed, didn't get Mabel Yeong to check and it off home.

School days was always as usual, Didn't get myself into troubles and was trying to learn, (:

except for some stupid stuff that caught my attention, i couldn't bring myself to even look at it .

OhShit, ain't too overboard, Opps, i'm real sorry. i shouldn't give a damn about it (:

went to 320 often and went home late at night, was kinda bored there. couldn't find anything else to do.

It was my last day of counselling today, and i'm so glad that i don't have to go there anymore (:

the counsellor told me that he doesn't want to see me there anymore, so does i :D .

Happy die (: went to visit grandma today and hamsters (:

was really heartache when i found out that the hamster actually was injured , it bleeds.

oh screw it, seriously feel like killing the black one . ;(

so stress up this few days, was thinking all over again, but just couldn't get into a decision.

consequences, beginning, even what we'll end up with. So afraid to bring myself to that topic seriously.

If ever, i made a decision, whether isit a yes or no. I've to accept the fact that i've already said that.

So, i couldn't really make up a decision, I'm so afraid that i might hurt you. ;(

终于看开爱回不来

我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开

宁愿没出息求我别离开

2010-01-24T11:40:00.002+08:00

Always remind yourself,

it's okay to be imperfect .

i finally got the temptation to blog, and maybe it's just a short one. Gonna prepare and off to my longjohn :D !

Shouldn't blog about school days as things go fine accept for a fair circle-d in my yellow form >;( .

Had a great day with Eunice, Hongming, Jianyuan, Junyu, ZhaoEn, Jeff, Caleb, Lum, Kumchee, Terence ..

sorry, some i've forgotten ;P

meetup with eunice they all at 320, as we didn't go bugis . Sorry Wayne, for not going. ;)

awhile later, zhaoen's group went off to Juronghill .

talk talk talk, poker poker poker, eat eat eat . Than planning to go over to juronghill to look for them.

took bus to jurongpoint at 7+ , than bus-ed to JurongBirdpark and walk all the way up.

was super tiring i swear, as we're walk slope and it's a long way up.

had real fun at the top, and talk some stuff with some people . sigh*

there's a stupid guy keep bully me ;( hahahahahaha ! but thanks for entertaining (:

the wind upstairs was superb ! enjoy it super lots, it was windyyyyyy ~

when i look down, i spot till a alien face which was on the floor, tell somebody to see too (:

scary, it was like with a scar on the forehead, than that stupid guy keep scare me ;(

run around, Poker, Jokes, enjoy views, play around and went off at 10+ .

walk down the slope was much more relaxing (: hahahaha ! obviously -.-

Eunice fell down and was complaining all the way, haha ! remember clean your wound .

Hmm .. walk over to busstop , pass-by a car with a alien face infront, scare die me !

run to the front and talk with others, than to the back again.

sigh* things screw-ed .

thanks for the days , guys (: next time we go again okay ? :D:D:D !

was quite happy this few days as ... ... ...

为了你拒绝了一切挽留
为了你放弃了一切的自由

2010-01-12T15:34:00.002+08:00

The good old days, the honest man;
The restless heart, the Promised Land

Sorry readers for not posting for time being ;x had been going out often with peeps (:

Haven been touching my laptop for some days too, didn't get used to it ah ;x

school was fine except for times when i've been caught by mabel yeong for my skirt and stuff.

but i've been a good girl recently, was real happy of my performance that was given by teachers.

Wonder when will mabel yeong stop giving me yellow forms, it's like so troublesome can?

Phone wasn't charge-d well last night, so came home to get it charge-d and changed.

was real angry just now, but was fine after a moment later. ain't it great ?

hahaha! was being pangseh-ed by some people, which really makes me damn dulan.

was standing there like a dumb, waiting for no one to appear. F it.

Somehow, i don't really like my class due to someone and some reasons.

but i might be unreasonable uhh, but is like .. i couldn't tolerate them being close -'-

I know you ain't mine alr, so .. i can only watch and bear in silence.

I apologise if i'm being very irritating or even unreasonable. who can tolerate this behaviour then ?

Not gonna be bottling up my feelings anymore , asshole.

It's the end of the romance, it's over.

If only, you're better off without me , but her .

我不用你陪
你不要误会
我只是有点累
却没时间崩溃

2010-01-05T15:26:00.002+08:00

Closed my eyes took a final breath
Right there and then i just knew it

went to school with melissa and reena (:

finally get to go back to class after 10am+ , after such a long time.

things changed, classmates, class, teachers, classroom, feelings.

text all the way throughout school day, if not i'll be bored to death ;x

sign a agreement with Mabel yeong, i dont think i can do it, but try my best ah ;D

went over to darren house after school and went home to get change.

Sometimes you know, somebody you love text you, you'll have the fear to open up and see it.

no matter it's a good or bad stuff, you still have to accept it. even though you know it's wont be great.

so yea, I've fight the fear and end up having a sad news . Boy, i know it long ago alr (:

it's okay to stop loving, i understand. i might loved you for a long time, but things does change.

i don't wanna cling onto you anymore. This is the second time i've let you go.

dont turn back and wanting me back, i might be better off another way.

now i don't have to bottle up those feelings inside, my feeling faded too . sigh*

you know, it aint easy to hold on for such a long time when we didn't even communicate at all.

thanks for the 3month 8days, i might be giving in too much.

我的爱回不来, 还有什么可期待
你的情已不在, 还有什么放不开
我的爱回不来, 心中一片空白

你的情已不在, 留下的只是一片尘埃

2010-01-01T18:28:00.002+08:00

When you're back,

this fear is coming back.

HAPPY NEW YEAR (: Welcome 2010 ;D

yesterday went meetup with Eunice and alyssa first than off to 504.

visit grandma awhile , and off to 532. awhile later, others come and was laughing like mad.

And awhile more later, darren and chunkiat came. went off to 320 slack, see them play basketball.

than night time went to prata shop eat, and went over to voiddeck.

was bored there, so text MRY ask them where're they and went to boonlay to look for them.

took 99 and stop at my house there, saw the bus turn over to boonlay 175 side, angry >;(

walk-ed over to boonlay cc, meetup with MRY, zhiwei, nicolas, ongjunwei, eugene, kahmeng (:

talk talk awhile and went to eat with alyssa, eunice, ricco and jinhan.

super full ahh, went back to badminton court to slack while waiting for them to be back. took some pictures (;

went over to countdown for 2010, sure it's gonna be a great year right ? (:

the fireworks was super awesome, love it . enjoyed it real lots.

went back to same place, waited for Junlong to come and slack till 12+ and went off.

back to 320 and went up darren house, played murderer at his house.

went down and play it again, went up to eat with alyssa, darren and chunkiat.

poker with kor , than went down to look for others.

went home at 7+am, bath and sleep.

woke up at 5+, was having a gooood rest (:

mrvy : Ladies, had real fun and troubles with you girls this year, thanks for being there always thru those happy and sad moments. Gonna be same class together this year again, it's gonna be a great year again. classmates changed, but we're still together aint it ;D hahaha !

Abegail : BABE ! gonna be 5th year (: happy die, hahaha ! faster come back la, didn't get to countdown and spend my holiday with you uhh. thanks for being there always ah (: you know i love you right ? ;D haahaha !

baby : happy belate-d 3rd month , didn't get to say it to you as you were not in singapore . hope you did enjoy your holiday there (: even though things might change, but i wont (: .

当你放开了手离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我

2009-12-29T15:29:00.002+08:00

Sweet shadow taking hold of my mind

Another day has been devoured

I'm back from my boring counselling, i almost fall asleep while answering his questions ;x

Had fun and lots of laughter last night, but was quite tiring ;D

went down and settle some stuff, bought cig and off to darren's house.

around 2+ take 98 to taman and change to bus 30 to east coast .

walk a long distance to reach our bbq pit and was super hungry at that time.

so what i did was keep complaining and complaining, that's what i always does right ?

reach there and settle down, walk around and start eating food that was cook by my hao gege.

Darren came over after awhile, than after that was zhaoen jefferson and their group of people.

Jinhan cannot make it due to some reasons, drink a bit and went sitting around.

i dont want to go toilet with eunice alr ;( she keep scare people around sia.

went toilet with alyssa and eunice, need walk some distance though.

what we did was, run. (:

Eunice keep saying stuff that scare us and so we run and walk , run and walk.

i remember alyssa run shortcut which makes me laugh till i cant run anymore ;x

Went back there, it's around 4+ alr .

Eunice was still trying to be funny ;x scare herself with her own words .

LOL ! Couldn't stop laughing at that time, thanks retard of the day (:

went back after guys had done showering, walk to busstop and took 197 all the way back to JE.

Sleep for awhile and woke up, sucha long bus ride can ?

almost all was sleeping soundly, was bored die in the bus.

reach Jurongeast interchange, fool around and home ! :D

什么都藏在心里藏在我的行动里
难道这温柔的爱语只能表达成我爱你

2009-12-26T11:22:00.004+08:00

A reflection of the mistakes
To the end you will deny

Wokeup early today, due to the noise level at home. sigh*

Okay, so let's recall what i did this few days .

23th december - phone lost , screw up -.-

Went to bugis to shop with mrvy (: haven't been with them for long time ah.

Bought some stuff and went around to explore.

Went back at 9+, went off to 320 meet Hongming and co.

around 10+ Went to busstop and realize that wallet lost , zzz ! CR LA ! ;(

24th December.

Christmas eve (:

Meetup with Jie and went off to JE interchange to double check if there's my pouch.

SIGH* Totally gone, Fuckup mood. Went to Ahhuat house downstair wait for him.

After that, Off to 320, slack slack awhile, Yangjie came (: he b'come darker alr, botak ;x

went off to ahhuat house after they've eaten, slack inside while waiting for guys to bathe.

Went to a coffeeshop, ordered drinks and went to taman, Kenny's house for dinner.

After awhile, went down to buy ice with Eunice, YangJie and Alwyn.

we walk freaking far can ;( super tiring. But manage to walk back :D:D !

eat and they start doing other stuff, drinking and play mahjong till the clock strike 00.00am.

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!! ~ ♥

25th december

eaten cake and everyone's back to normal, Mahjong, computer, television.

They play till v funny okay, they keep drinking, and ofcourse mine is coke .__.''

some went off to bed, left Fong, Alwyn, Shannon and me .

Fong complaining no place to sleep, while me complaining the room too cold.

manage to fall asleep at 7 and wake up at 9.

Eunice and Yangjie are awake alr, so talk talk talk till 11.30 and went off.

Sleep for awhile and woke up due to calls and texts. Couldn't get into sleep anymore.

so prepare, and Hongming called, went down to look for them and slack ;x

Went to eat at coffeeshop and meet Darren and off to Eunice and alyssa (;

after that, Zhaoen, Jeff and shawn came over.

Full of laughters and was quite irritated too, by the ''drum stick'', f it .

slack away our christmas, sigh* but overall had real fun.

Home @ 10+ (:

thanks for the christmas guys ! :D

不能相信爱令人心碎
那种痛楚令我对爱胆怯
想念每一夜不曾停歇
有快乐有伤悲有誓约
爱越来越强烈

2009-12-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

I'm in love with you, the way I wanted to
What I had to do, had to run from you

Bored days as usual, so didn't really wanna get my blog update.

Hmm, went to cellgroup outing and get everything settled, had hell lots of fun (;

other days was slacking, so yea. Dont wanna keep update the same thing again and again .

Get my blog background changed, to black.

Tag me and tell me that previous layout with white background nicer or black which is what i'm using now.

so i can get some comment on it, but for myself .. i guess it's black which is nicer ;x

was super lazy this few days, get up late & taking my own sweet time to get thing done ;x

Gonna go collect my uniform tmr with yuxin ;D Hope it suit me ah (:

Alyssa's back, gonna be meeting her tmr with Jie. wow !

day after gonna go bugis with Reena and yuxin too (: shopping time ! :D

24th, coming , aiai's coming out! I'm getting excited to see this guy with botak hair ;x

Ohyea ! Baby text me today (: happy die ! :D:D:D:D !

text with him awhile and stop msging alr, exp uhh.

babybaby, wear more clothing and had fun there. Imissdieyoualr. (:

最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走

2009-12-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

Don't go over the edge
you'll make a big mistake

Well, i couldn't remember what i've did this few days.

Sunday, went to 320 look for guys.

Slack there till night and went off.

Yesterday went for my counselling (:

He keep asking about my family background, LOL !

what's the problem with my background , and my case ?

daddy and mommy was being funny yesterday :D !

went off to slack awhile and went home ;D

Today, wokeup, reply texts , bath and off to buy my books in school.

After that, went off to Jurongpoint to shop, spend alot of money okay ? :D

Mommy's being good today, bought lots of stuff.

i wonder is she broke now ? LOL !

2 bag, shoe, and never forget about camera (: !

lovedie her ahh ! Was figuring out the camera just now (:

Cab home, than straight away went to slack ;D

just reach home though, had fun there.

18,19 need to go for church stuff. sigh*

sunday, might be going to somewhere over the rainbow.

24, Yangjie book out :D 25, christmas (: 27 , BBQ !

So looking forward to it can ? faster faster , time flies ~

时间它像是河流慢慢的轻轻推送
有时候像是漩涡很难静止而不动
开心的伤心的
一辈子能改变什麽能相信什麽

2009-12-11T00:19:00.002+08:00

You changed your mind I guess
But you never let me know

I'm back from outside,

Shall start with chalet, shall we ?

shouldn't elaborate much about it.
want more from Jinhan's blog (:

Shall say, this is the worst chalet for me in my whole life.

well, try sleeping outside and being bored there for the whole day.

i swear, you wont feel good . Dont give me those stupid excuses or whatever.

Went there with Reena, Jinhan and Kahmeng, these two guys are irritating in train.

long ride and reach there, put stuff and off out for our dinner/lunch.

Poker, and trick. Reena went off to prayer meeting, Jinhan and me talk2.

after that went back and eat again, than slack all the way.

Went off to Beach for some entertainment and took some photos till early morning (:

Crap alot there, and laugh much . went back to chalet after that.

was quite sleepy and tiring alr, so plan to sleep, But due to Melissa's family, we cant sleep in room.

so Jinhan, Kahmeng and i went to a bench and sleep, till all of them walk away.

Jinhan came back and couldn't get back to sleep, when i woke up, see him staring like idk what ;x

So yea, Jinhan and I went off first.

walk-ed to interchange and took mrt home, Jinhan sleeping in the train like idk what .

keep bang until things, than swaying his head all over ;x LOLOLOLOLzxc !

I've improved, didnt sleep in mrt even though i'm sleepy.

went home eat, than went off to lalaland.

Wokeup, prepare-d and went downstair to slack with Hongming, Jianyuan, Junyu, Ricco and Wayne.

awhile later, Alvin came. Waited for Jie de bus and went up .

Off to 320 meetup with guys (; they were playing basketball all the way,

while i'm complaining about my boredness, I've nothing to do ;x

Watching them play and went off to 346 for our dinner (:

Thanks darren for my dinner ah ;D hahaha !

Listen to them joke around and went off to playground.

slack there till 11+pm and went home .

Yangjie must takecare inside okay (: !

Remember to text us when you book-ed out :D:D !

i wont miss you ;D

Hmm, and Ahben too :D:D !

爱上以后才知道有那么痛苦
爱上以后习惯成为一种屈服
爱上了以后才突然恍然大悟
不是爱礼物一样是孤独

2009-12-06T18:10:00.002+08:00

If i could hold you tight
I'd have the world tonight

Had quite a long day for yesterday and today (:

So If you're busy, or lazy to read. shall give me blog a skip ;D

yesterday, i went down to look for Junyu, Jianyuan, Hongming & Yongye ;D

Poker few rounds and Walk-ed to 504 to talk 98 to lakepoint.

Saw Zhaoen, so .. .. Pei him wait for Yangjie , and went together accept for jianyuan.

Act smart ;x he alone walk to lakepoint while we're waiting for him outside .___.''

Went in and off to pool side for ''party''

endup , we're slacking all the way till babe went off for her bikini -.-

Walk-ed around and flashback to class outing, wellwell .. great time (:

Talk and make fun a lot , Zhaoen is cruel !! ;( pathetic froggy.

Waited for quite sometimes and went off as guys are hungry.

And we went off to a kopitiam for our dinner , and planned where to go next.

so .. .. Hongming, Junyu, Zhaoen and I went to Darren's house,

while Eunice, Kenny, Yangjie & Zhenhan went off to Kenny's house.

Jianyuan and Alvin went home, and walk-ed to busstop (:

Bus-ed 98 to darren's house & fooling around in bus.

Wentup to his house and watch-ed 2012 once again,

Zhaoen went off to his lalaland, and i'm trying to get my sleep too .

But .. thanks to Junyu and Darren keep making those irritating noises so i cant get to sleep.

Wake me up and drink, well .. ;( 4mouth and i start drinking coke .

Cannot take it ;x Talk alot in the kitchen till the morning .

went to wake zhaoen up as we gotta leave the house for breakfast.

Sucha pig ah ;x His sleeping pose suckszxc ;x

Went down to look for Yangjie and Eunice and went for our breakfast.

Hongming and Junyu is dead ;x hahaha ! drunk man ;x

Junyu went to toilet for such a long time , and came back with his pale face ;x

so .. both of them went home first , while others went up to darren's house again.

Straight to the rooom (: Darren and Zhaoen's bad okay, keep making those stupid voices xD

Laugh a lot, and went out to sit awhile and in again to read comics .

But endup, i fall asleep ;x

Wokeup and sleep repeatly, super sad.

so plan not to sleep anymore, irritates Yangjie while he's sleeping ;x

Manage to keep him awake & we went off after stucking inside the room .

Walk-ed to 4head and walk back to 320 again.

slack for about 30min and went Home.

I'm super tired now.

Didn't manage to sleep as i'm not sleepy anymore.

Still got more things to do, so give mommy's friend wedding a skip.

Gonna be watching my show now (:

Pray that i can finish it before i fall asleep infront of the computer ;x

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去

2009-12-03T22:04:00.002+08:00

Let's pretend none of this ever happened.

It just doesn't meant to be here.

Woke up and went off to bath (:

Bus-ed to Babe house and woke her up at 1+pm.

Rush through everything, went off to buy cig & off to jp.

Meetup with Hongming and junyu while huining and jianyuan come after that.

Bus-ed 243 to Jurongwest stadium & off to BUFFET ! :D

I'm very hungry at the time , So chiong to the place where sushi was serve.

Order Food and start eating , was waiting for my 22 for long.

so went to smoke and back (: 22 was there waiting alr (:

So eat up and was super full ~ :D

Worth it ah, Even though it cost really much.

Finish the last dish, and taking the last photo.

Off to Staircase to photo spam :D:D !

had really great time there, enjoy a lot (:

Was planning where to go next , while babe need to go home .

So planned to go slack under my block, Poker all the way.

Home-d around 9+ (: !

thanks for the great day (: worth it all .

Upload those photo soon Babe and Huining :D

错以为全已扔掉全已忘记
原来无心流逝的时间是你
原以为过些时间再想起你也无所谓

2009-11-30T22:29:00.004+08:00

Let fear be a teacher,

instead of a under-taker.

Had a great time at aloha loyang with people (:

Meet Amanda at clementi and off to meet with others .

went to carry stuff and cab there to get things prepared.

Guys come after that and was poker-ing and slacking all the way .

I've got my entertainer, hahaha ! but still bored dhey.

around 9 walked to mac with darren they all and Amanda ;D

Bought stuff and back to chalet .

Amanda went off .

was entertain-ed by darren and yangjie like mad -.-

ohhyeaaa, uglyuglyugly is kind of exciting game ah ;x

didn't get to sleep for the whole night ,

early morning 7+, wanted to turn in alr,

recieved call from zhaoen, and pei them went to woodlands.

i hate walking alone at those places, such a long path.

cab to pasir ris and to woodlands for meeting amanda.

watch them eat and waited for babe :D , and went off to RP.

talk and joke inside a room, after that went to eat and went off with babe.

slept inside mrt and went home to get bath & manage sleep for 2hours.

get prepared and meet mry at Jurongpoint.

Eat at kopitiam and off to NTUC for our drinks (:

Went for our movie , which was like oh-so-bored.

The front part was super no life seriously, but the ending part was so exciting :D

Reena was saying that it looks like a place where alien live.

But i dont really find it that nice, but overall fine fine (:

the last part keep me awake :D

Home-d after the 2hour+ movie.

I'm super tired now can ?

wonder how i survive at chalet just now .

i was in the mood of being awake , LOLLL !

but cannot be that awake till i'm home ;x

And i think i'm gonna turn in soon ;D

My eye cannot make it alr ;(

thanks babe for the bubble (L)

而爱并没有教给我生存
只教我交易虚荣给天真
可是爱让我们变成陌生人
却变不了更高尚的灵魂

2009-11-28T11:05:00.003+08:00

Promises made that were broken
Tender lies so softly spoken

Yesterday was so fine :D

Went to look for the same people till Dang came.

7+ i need to go for relative dinner at coffeeshop .___.''

wellwell, So many familiar faces there that i haven been meeting up with .

Eaten and Brother chasing me away b'cos there's a lack of seats ;x

so , eaten and went off to look for same people & babe, Jie.

awhile later pat,haqiqie, rahul came (:

It definitely had a lots of laughter .

was super full at that time :X

Walking around & Home-d :D

Gonna meet babe and jie later (:

Update later alright ? (:

- EDIT ! -

Went to look for babe at Jurongpoint with her mom (:

shop for babe's clothing and off to namdai ;D

went to buy cig and wait for Jie to come .

Went off to gekpoh for stuff and off back to babe's house .

Slack and went off as babe need to go for her party (:

Enjoy lady :D she's so prettyzxc (:

Went off to eat with Jie at 851 and off to slack.

waited for 185 & bus-ed to 532

waited for kors and junyu & home-d 9+ :D

Babe's mom invite us to her party at lakepoint (:

Don't worry, i'll be there ;D

Excited for tmr aint it ?

gonna turn in early today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUINING !

Meetup soon (: !

There's another kind of love out there,

one that makes you feel like you're better than you are,

not less than what you are.

one that makes you feel like you can do everything .

没有坚持就没折磨
没有开始就没结束

2009-11-27T00:03:00.002+08:00

I wish that you would just leave,
cause your presence still lingers here,

and it won’t leave me alone

Had a great day today aint it ;x

Even though i sacrifice by waking up early today .

Get things prepared and meet MRY and zhiwei at lakeside.

went off to clark quay for church camp stuff or something .

Kaobei-ing reena all the way , as they pangseh me .

wait for me under the escalator and i went off ,

didn't know they went missing.

Was slacking all the way during those game station,

till the last part when i eaten the wasabi biscuit,

and guess what ?

I split out everything and rush off to the toilet .

Gosh , It sucks like nobody business.

cant believe Zhiwei can tahan inside his mouth till he went to toilet.

What a big joke ;x Actually it was a punishment though (:

Went to another room and chit chat with Yueze and went off (:

reena went for her tuition, zhiwei went home.

while me, dang and yuxin went over to dang's house .

Had super lots of laughter till we dont even realise the time.

Sorry reena for letting you waited (:

Train-ed to Bukit Batok and planned to watching 2012,

but it screw-ed .

so went to Log-1 *(idk how to spell)

So went off for our dinner and slack around .

train-ed home :D

Had super lots of fun with mrvy and zhiwei today (:

But i'm freezing when i'm at riverwalk.

Considering for saturday service.

Gonna be busy soon,

aint it great (:

tmr gonna pei parents to pulaubin for idk stuff.

29th to 30th - chalet (SEL)

30th - movie with mrvy -.-

9-11 dec - Dang's chalet .

15 dec - counselling ;(

19 dec - Yuxin's birthday :D

Haven planned for Meeting up with Janna and co.

well, shall planned soon (: miss them much .

BABE ! where are you ? -.- MIA ahhh !

how i am gonna contact you sia , alamak .___.''
sorry kor(s) and junyu for pangseh-ing you all for those days ;x

all of our memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending,
so much for my happy ending…

你曾说过会永远爱我
也许承诺
不过证明没把握
不用难过 ,不用掩饰什么
当结果是那么赤裸裸

2009-11-24T23:39:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna stay strong ,

strong enough to let you go .

Woke up early and went off to NUH today .

Meet Leon at Lakeside and went off . (:

get well soon lady (:

Went off around 1+ and went clementi for my lunch :D

LongJohn ! :D From hungry till bloated ;x

99 back home to get change and went down to look for guys .

Patrick, gohsheng was there too ;D & there comes yongye .

Normal & usual stuff done .

Home-d quite early today, 8+pm.

Gratzs me (: Mommy say miracle.

Hmm , i guess baby left singapore alr.

Takecare there boy, i'm so not gonna miss you ;D

You doesn't belongs to me anymore, soon alright.

i swear i'll get over it . I've experience it before aint it .

Sigh* Gonna wake up and off to reality .

i guess i didn't try hard enough for being yours.

这么快就走到了尽头
还以为彼此仍然拥有

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2009-11-22T21:46:00.004+08:00

If he misses you, he'll call. If he want you, he'll say it. And if he cares, he'll show it.

If not, he cant be worth your time because you're obviously not worth his .

home-d after playing new game with hongming jianyuan and junyu.

well, quite interesting though (:

Tomorrow's another day . sigh*

Baby's going overseas soon.

Gonna miss him badly.

Will you give call ?

Gonna skip our 2nd month.

I hope you wont fade away ... ... ...

越想逃离却越沉迷,而回忆太拥挤
我无法呼吸,只能拥抱着空气
假装那是你, 不曾远离

2009-11-21T13:51:00.003+08:00

Give me one moment in time

When I'm racing with destiny

had super lots of fun with classmates yesterday ! :D

things turn out fine accept for the bbq pit .____.''

well, thanks jinhan anyway ;D

quite a number of people turn up which is more than i thought ?

lovedie 2B`09 :D

meetup with Reena and went off to jp at 11.

waited for melissa to come and went to eat at kopitiam.

went off to buy drinks at NTUC and off to yueze's cake.

was decorating and melissa's down with fever so she went to one side to rest.

after that 175 for ciggs, and took another bus to boonlay due to the weather.

Reena's house next , i swear i can't get into sleep b'cos of reena .

Thanks for jumping onto me and melissa ah, so painful.

yuxin's here and they play some round of pool master and we went off .

cab to lakepoint and went up to syaz's house .

didn't wanna get in , as idk why . hahahaha !

than me and yuxin went out walk walk and went to creepy staircase .___.''

back to syaz's house as guys out to somewhere .

take those stuff that are need and went to bbq pit :D:D !

slack there while getting the fire started.

went off around 6+ for cg.

cab back at 9 ~ 10+.

slack and play police and murderer with mrvy and malay girls (:

FUN TO THE MAX ! :X Iffah's being retarded and melissa too ;x

we finish our last game and went to pack up as the security guard is here -.-

went out of lake point while waiting for idk what thing ?

than waited, and listen to songs & off to taman mac.

few rounds of poker there and they went to eat , while i eat my ice-cream.

SIGHHHHH ! pathetic.

reena's mother came over to fetch us home ;x

thanks ah ;D

babe called and she's coming over later :D

Kor called and jio me go 504 eat later .___.''

mommy call and call me fold blanket -.-

wellwell, bye :D

放心离开我我会记得这一刻
那些还飞翔着不可思议的梦
雨后的天空会有绚烂的彩虹
像最初相信着我会找到自由

2009-11-18T15:05:00.004+08:00

The greater the love ,

the greater the tragedy when it's over .

Gonna rush down after this post (:

- 171109 -

went down to look for people at 532,

wellwell, end up going to arena with mrvy, Meijin , kor and junyu.

had fun there , but was stuck b'cos of the weather .

walk one big round to the busstop & waited or 193 :D

Jie pei me go coffeeshop to buy food .

ate and crap-ed at a shelter & home after 10pm ;x

door's not shut :X

Use computer all the way till 2+ am and baby say he's coming over .___.''

sneak out of the house to meet him (:

finally get to meet him ;x

baby, be proud ah, i first time sneak out .___.''

great time , even though it's midnight.

thanks for walking over here ah ♥

baby , sorry to disappoint you again, next time okay ?

Went market to eat with mommy :D

buy food for Vincent :D:D good sister right ? :X

Gonna go down alr , hehehe ! bye *wave.

---- edit ----

I'm home (: !

went down meet hongming jianyuan junyu and ricco,

while waiting for babe to come over.

after few rounds of game , alvin and zhaoen came.

went to eat at market & slack downstair zhaoen house.

walk all the way to garden, long time since we were there ;D

slack awhile and play another kind of game (:

everybody's in :D well, i'm a pro murderer right ? ;D

double kill ;x ROFL !

Jianyuan piggy back babe & hongming piggy back me.

stupid hongming turn turn turn & babe kick me .___.''

stop half way as Babe phone went missing , so turn back to look for it .

couldn't find alr ah, so went home straight .

为了你拒绝了一切挽留
为了你放弃了一切的自由

♥ Learn to let go

day 9

day 7

day 6

day 5

Day 2

Day 1

心里有点放不下

a lover die

I knew that I never meant a thing to you,

I knew what you said to me wasn’t the truth.

Happy 2nd month honey (Y) love you (;Was rather disappointing, but it's okay. we shall celebrate another day kay ?School celebration was .. bored.School > home > safra > jp > arena > lakeside > home :D아기, 이젠 날 떠나 지마

Happy 2nd month honey (Y) love you (;

The worst part about being lied to is knowing you’re not worth the truth

Sometimes, its the good memories that kill you inside out, not the bad ones.

I knew that I never meant a thing to you,

I knew what you said to me wasn’t the truth

Once in a lifetime, you meet a person who takes your breath away. not because you want them to, but because they’re meant to.

Happy 2nd month honey (Y) love you (;
Was rather disappointing, but it's okay. we shall celebrate another day kay ?
School celebration was .. bored.
School > home > safra > jp > arena > lakeside > home :D

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